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Window to Your Souli look in to Your Soulless Eyes  it's You i secretly despise  
i stare at You, DEEP harbored hate  a feeling i can't regulate   
4 torturous years,  You lied to me  4 long fucking years  Your conspiracy  
 
i look in to Your Cold Blue Eyes  it's Your Soul I fucking despise  
brainwash me more, i'll be Your whore  Your "love" disgusts me, lie some more   
Your stare in to me,  Empty Eyes  Promising, Swearing  FUCKING LIES.  
 
that's all You've ever known to do  it's IMPOSSIBLE, You can't stay true  You lie, You cheat, You fuck with he Window to Your Soul
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Should have Stayed3,000 miles, I went away  We're on the phone, "You'll NEVER stay!"  6 months, I give you. You'll be back!"   
Faith in Me's something  You always lacked.   
I was determined  to prove You wrong  Desperate to leave the life  I never belonged.   
3 long years passed,  You almost died..  Once again, along that ride   
You knowingly ingested  the Opiate "solution"  My Mom downs pills..  INSTITUTION.   
There I am, miles away  Scared and hurt, Could not convey  
 
I just kept it all inside  Smile, repress  LIE, LIE, LIE Should have Stayed
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PretendI lay down  on My bed  this moment  I ALWAYS dread   
I close My eyes  turn on My side  I feel you enter  push inside...   
I gasp in pleasure  My heart's in pain  I let you in  Again, again   
I let you in,  Loneliness  a year of insults  
I repress   
you look at Me..  "Does it feel good?"   
never feels like  I thought it would   
My heart aches  and then you leave   
I let you in  
and now I grieve   
My soul aches  for one more time  look in the mirror  My tears dry Pretend
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MirrorMirror-V2   
I am lost.  What do I do...  Blue Eyes stare in the mirror,  But all I see is YOU.   
I am lost.  In this addiction...  How can I repay You?  Inherited affliction.   
I am lost.  In this feeling, loneliness.  Why didn't You love me?  Because of all the stress?   
Was it cause of how I acted?  The way that I behaved?  Because I wanted your attention?  You should have been thankful  For the child that you made.   
Then left behind.  All those years.  Though You were there  Causing tears.   
I'd Mirror
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Apparently I like writing poems. Even though they may not be that good and I don't really know what I'm doing.. it's helping me through a really lonely time in my life right now.
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You... Again (Entry 1)

Tue Sep 29, 2009, 8:52 AM
  • Mood: Worried
  • Listening to: Apple Bottom Jeans, bitches.
  • Reading: Pillars of the Earth
  • Watching: my life become more amazing every day,
  • Playing: nothing
  • Eating: nothing, for once
  • Drinking: water
She told me to journal, so I am. Don't like to though... we're a lot alike in that way I think (and I think you know too). Repress, right? Repress with drugs, more sex, excuses, more drugs. Let that light fade, baby. Let it fade slowly.

Here is how I feel now: angry, disappointed in myself (not you, M. Not you, J.). It's all about me. Angry at myself for giving up the most precious thing I could ever give to someone. My body and soul. Excited.. scared. nervous. All these things, I feel.

I'm sorry that you can't get your life together. I am sorry you cannot face anything remotely close to reality. I'm sorry. I feel empathy for you.. NOT SYMPATHY, so don't get it twisted.

I am fucking up. I can't stay strong right now and get these fucking people out of my life and to MOVE ON. I NEED TO MOVE ON.

GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY LIFE AND LET ME LIVE!

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I see the beauty in everything.

I am longing FOR A FRIEND.

I don't know if I am talented.

Sunsets are the most beautiful things I have ever seen.

I love looking at uniquely beautiful women. I can't explain it.. the way walk, talk, dress, look and act. I mean UNIQUE. NOT typical.. women are so beautiful! Size, race, shape, age, sexual preferences or weight.. it doesn't matter. Women are beautiful, emotion filled creatures.

I am lonely.

I harbor hate.

I harbor Love.

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    ~JunaAvatari Sep 12, 2009, 10:29:04 AM
    thanks for fav on forest whisper
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    ~LordAche Sep 9, 2009, 2:29:57 PM
    Waazzaaaaa!!

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    Thanks for the fav!
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    thanks for the fav :)

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    =wolf-grrl Aug 26, 2009, 11:08:01 AM
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    Thaaanks for the add! :glomp:

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    =DriaEve Aug 22, 2009, 3:29:20 PM
    Thank you very much for the :+fav: :)

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    ~tears-of-blood911 Aug 21, 2009, 11:39:15 AM
    Thank you so much for all the faves and the watch I really appreciate it. I should have a few new poems up soon :aww:

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    So why do we pretend?
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