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Window to Your Soul by xHeaVen-at-NighTx, literature

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Window to Your Soul

i look in to Your Soulless Eyes it's You i secretly despise i stare at You, DEEP harbored hate a feeling i can't regulate 4 torturous years, You lied to me 4 long fucking years Your conspiracy i look in to Your Cold Blue Eyes it's Your Soul I fucking despise brainwash me more, i'll be Your whore Your "love" disgusts me, lie some more Your stare in to me, Empty Eyes Promising, Swearing FUCKING LIES. that's all You've ever known to do it's IMPOSSIBLE, You can't stay true You lie, You cheat, You fuck with hearts You ripped out mine, tore it apart You stare me Soulless Blue Eyes Promising, Kissing TELLING ME LIES. pure

Should have Stayed by xHeaVen-at-NighTx, literature

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Should have Stayed

3,000 miles, I went away We're on the phone, "You'll NEVER stay!" 6 months, I give you. You'll be back!" Faith in Me's something You always lacked. I was determined to prove You wrong Desperate to leave the life I never belonged. 3 long years passed, You almost died.. Once again, along that ride You knowingly ingested the Opiate "solution" My Mom downs pills.. INSTITUTION. There I am, miles away Scared and hurt, Could not convey I just kept it all inside Smile, repress LIE, LIE, LIE! You both choose my Sister, over me WHAT THE FUCK? I COULD SEE! He buys her things She gives her love “Poor, poor girl..” And

Pretend by xHeaVen-at-NighTx, literature

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Pretend

I lay down on My bed this moment I ALWAYS dread I close My eyes turn on My side I feel you enter push inside... I gasp in pleasure My heart's in pain I let you in Again, again I let you in, Loneliness a year of insults I repress you look at Me.. "Does it feel good?" never feels like I thought it would My heart aches and then you leave I let you in and now I grieve My soul aches for one more time look in the mirror My tears dry why'd I ever let you come inside?

Mirror by xHeaVen-at-NighTx, literature

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Mirror

Mirror-V2 I am lost. What do I do... Blue Eyes stare in the mirror, But all I see is YOU. I am lost. In this addiction... How can I repay You? Inherited affliction. I am lost. In this feeling, loneliness. Why didn't You love me? Because of all the stress? Was it cause of how I acted? The way that I behaved? Because I wanted your attention? You should have been thankful For the child that you made. Then left behind. All those years. Though You were there Causing tears. I'd look in to Your empty eyes In to Your righteous soul, Hoping You'd live long enough Until I grew old. Hoping that You’d realize Needles weren

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Window to Your Soul by xHeaVen-at-NighTx, literature

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Window to Your Soul

Should have Stayed by xHeaVen-at-NighTx, literature

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Should have Stayed

Pretend by xHeaVen-at-NighTx, literature

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Pretend

Mirror by xHeaVen-at-NighTx, literature

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Mirror

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As the Ocean Breeze by tears-of-blood911, literature

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As the Ocean Breeze

I look across, what a view. A wave, a splash!- wets my shoe. The sky filled with grey, fog a thick, a cloudy day. As I sit here,on this rock, a missing girl, what a shock! She yelled at me, I ran to this place,on my rock, hold my knees. Tears fall down, lost in the beauty of the clear,blue sea The pain is gone- in my head, plays a peaceful song. Brisk, the ocean breeze, a tear of joy slides down my cheek. I clutch my knees, and just for that one moment, I feel free- Free as the ocean breeze...

Claustrophobia by tears-of-blood911, literature

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Claustrophobia

You said I'd never be alone But I feel so empty Now all these people are stealing my air With greed, they take it all The walls start to close in The room shrinks more and more My head begins to spin I can't take this cold torure I cannot get out They are in my way I scream and shout They do not hear a thing I say My lungs constrict from lack of oxygen The ceiling colapses I suffocated Then time relapses

A Vampire's Love by tears-of-blood911, literature

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A Vampire's Love

I told you that I love you Forever and always, But there was more meaning than you can see. Sometimes forever just is not long enough When you live for eternity. I would tell you that I will love you till the day I die; However I have been dead for a lengthy time. One day you will be gone from this earth You will be six feet under While I am up top, Stuck with this unbearable curse. I will love you through the mourning. I am still learning, Just how much you mean to me That sparkle in your eyes, always so green. You melt my heart of stone like butter to a frying pan It makes me wonder if it was all a partof your plan. You al

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I see the beauty in everything.

I am longing FOR A FRIEND.

I don't know if I am talented.

Sunsets are the most beautiful things I have ever seen.

I love looking at uniquely beautiful women. I can't explain it.. the way walk, talk, dress, look and act. I mean UNIQUE. NOT typical.. women are so beautiful! Size, race, shape, age, sexual preferences or weight.. it doesn't matter. Women are beautiful, emotion filled creatures.

I am lonely.

I harbor hate.

I harbor Love.

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xHeaVen-at-NighTx

Sep 29, 2009

You... Again (Entry 1)

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She told me to journal, so I am. Don't like to though... we're a lot alike in that way I think (and I think you know too). Repress, right? Repress with drugs, more sex, excuses, more drugs. Let that light fade, baby. Let it fade slowly. Here is how I feel now: angry, disappointed in myself (not you, M. Not you, J.). It's all about me. Angry at myself for giving up the most precious thing I could ever give to someone. My body and soul. Excited.. scared. nervous. All these things, I feel. I'm sorry that you can't get your life together. I am sorry you cannot face anything remotely close to reality. I'm sorry. I feel empathy for you.. NOT SYMP

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xHeaVen-at-NighTx

Aug 28, 2009

i miss you

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i miss you. no, NOT you... YOU. i don't know why. you're a horrible person. and i have someone now.. but i still miss you. remember when we were "in love"? remember when we couldn't go one night without sleeping together, loving each other? HOW THE FUCK DID IT COME TO THIS? 2 broken as fuck souls. now you're just soulless. and i still love you.

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xHeaVen-at-NighTx

Aug 20, 2009

Beautiful ~ (For you, my friend)

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The time is right I'm gonna pack my bags And take that journey down the road Cause over the mountain I see the bright sun shining And I want to live inside the glow Yeah I wanna go to place where I am nothing and everything That exists between here and nowhere I wanna got to a place where time has no consequence at all yeah The sky opens to my prayers I wanna go to beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, I wanna go to beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, I wanna go to beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, I wanna go to beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, Please understand that it's not that I don't care But right now these walls are closing in on